I am finally doing that thing where I check my flist regularly and read the posts and stuff. Now all I need to do is accidentally get involved in a flamewar, and it'll be like I was never gone!
(Please note: I do not actually want to get involved in a flamewar. Given my current mental and emotional state, I would probably write one really scathing post, and then see my name mentioned on an anon meme or something and burst into tears.)
Related: came up on failmeme recently, was saddened to realise that people apparently still hate me, not only for the one mistake I did make, but for a whole lot of others that I didn't. Made one non-anon post clarifying things, but doubt that anyone cares. Haters gonna hate and all that.
Do you know what really, really hurts? I don't bear Liz any ill will at all, nor any of her friends who chose to defriend me, and she doesn't seem like the sort of person who would be secretly telling her friends to anonymously insult me or something. And yet, apparently there are a whole lot of people who are friends with her who think that it's okay to run some sort of anonymous vendetta against me in her name. And I'm sure she knows, because she usually knows when her name comes up on memes, but she isn't saying a word to stop them. That hurts, because if I saw my friends bashing someone in my name, I'd ask them to stop, even if it was someone I disliked.
For the record - if you hang out on one of the anon memes and you see Liz's name mentioned in conjunction with mine, please do not say nasty things about her, especially not for my sake
. I just don't need that sort of nastiness in my life, you know? Liz was a pretty good friend to me while we were still friends, and our parting of ways was a mutual agreement. As much as I'm saddened by some of the things that have happened since then, I still don't bear her any ill will or malice. I became friends with her in the first place because I liked and respected her, and for the most part, I still do. Whenever people "defend" me by saying bad things about Liz, it doesn't just reflect badly on me as a person - it sends the message that I somehow condone people doing that, which I don't.
So please, don't do it, okay? And if you're friends with Liz and this topic ever comes up, please let her know how I feel about this, because I don't want her thinking that I have some massive grudge against her or something when I don't.
Well, I've just gone and derailed this post into a discussion of something I didn't mean to talk about, so maybe it's a good idea to just wrap it up. I'm going to go and use an entire box of tissues in an effort to clear my blocked nose, or something. Peace out, flist.This is a crosspost from Dreamwidth. You can reply over there using your DW account or OpenID. comment(s) so far.